Now you must hear this with wisdom, or it will like many a proverb kill you. 

If you are suffering from loss of suicide, do not fear, GOD COMFORTS THEM WHO MOURN, and anyone that mourns so much, they are overcome by the sorrows of this world, i assure you, they have hearts, hearts that GOD loves, hearts that cared, and so for their caring they shall be cared for. For their mourning they shall be comforted. I assure you, GOD is more compassionate than you could think to be for your own child, HE is their father, and the FATHER's LOVE is more pitiful than the mtoher's. NOT a greater love, but more pitiful, for you mother have died for it already, comes with a since of self entitlement, for you have paid for it with your life. But the father, if he is a father, and THE ONE FATHER IS A FATHER, THE FATHER, THE HEART OF ALL FATHERS EVER THEY WERE, that is the heart of Christ in man, and THE FATHER chastised HIM a little. Understand. 

The Father must die for them, as the mother already has, and there fore the father knows by duty, he is bound to fulfill his half of the scale, father and mother as one, and so is designed to be on the scales, a pitiful love. You ever heard, "hell has no fury like a woman scorned." Men are not inately driven so. Man may meet his arch nemesis on the field of battle, and he will still be able to find pity for him, a mutual respect a common ground, a tie or unifications. Why? He is father, he is the one, the head, the binding wall of the whole, and thus he is not privy to hate for emothion, for certain events, but learns to do pillars, and overall standard, so that his operation, of death, dying, killing, and the like will be able to be maintained. It will drive any man mad, that does not elevate to such a posiiton, as a retired artillery sergeant of a combat arms profession going to foreign war, i tell you, it is true. If the man looses sight of the father role, the office in which he must hold, he will slip into dispairs, he will be overwhelmed with darkness, and sorrows, and what if's, what may have been, if he had only done this, or said that, if he would have, is not what a father is, he can not be, he must as of right ought to, and must be the head. HE takes it as he is given it from the father. 
A "casara sara," what ever will be, will be. And this must be good and right and holy with him. He must be able to keep everything, when he has nothing, or he was not and he is not, a father. 

His office is this much, all of it, or none of it. He can not be fathered by anything of his like equal, and be the father. He must need be, the father. Or another man is. And when in this office, he makes the decisions, but they are not his too make you see? do you understand? 

If they are his, he will be overwhelmed, he will be taken there in. but if they are his by charge, by command, by appointment, by the higher cauase, that which all fathers must put trust in, or they can not hold, and if they obtain, as i said, they will not hold. They will be over taken. Thus then it is a father, to a father that is greater, that is doing the like manner there of. 

That is taking loss, killing, dying, giving, receivning, and no matter what comes, GOD THE FATHER, going before us, knows us, and what we are to be, thus when you have one that is fallen. You must see as a father sees, as THE FATHER SEES. 
David brings his sheep home, even if they are torn apart, dead, murdered, put to shreds, he faces the bear, the lion, the wolves, and he tells him, you have taken my sheep, and it has a mother, and it has family, and i am it's shepherd, and i will bring it home, even in pieces, you must have no more of it. and he beats them over the head, and he takes his torn to pieces dead corpse sheep, back to it's flock, and he bearies it with his family, his own. David does this at 12. You know why? Cause he learned to love like a father, from THE FATHER. Not as a mother, a mother, should but go home and weep if she find her child in pieces. She has done her part. It is time to mourn for her. She is mother. But the father, this is his time, this is realm, his wall, his charge, she brought them in, he keeps them together. 

So then if it turn upon David, and prevent him from his misison, his charge, for David as any father knows, If he is dead, he is dead, nothing he can do anymore, that is between them and GOD, you dont get mad at the sinner for sinning, you keep your charge, you dont blame wolves or lions, or bears for being hungry, for eating, it was your charge to keep to safeguard, but who can guard, none but GOD. So if you are at your station and one is taken, one falls, one is killed, you are not to blame, GOD is at work, you did you, GOD will do the rest. So to David, does not kill them, but fights argues, beats them over the head with his cause his word, what he must now do, and if they refuse his duty to his flock, he kills them. He must, for if they kill him, it is the whole of the flock that then dies. But if he does not his duty, his flock is already dead, blind leading blind, a hireling propped up as what it is not. 

So does David say, "oh king, hear your servant now, for i am young, but i do tend my father's sheep, as shepherd, (means him alone) and when i have a sheep plucked from the flock, i go and i find my sheep, and even though a lion or a bear, have my sheep, and it even be rent to pieces, I will gather my flock, i will beat them over the head and take my sheep back. And if they turn on me oh king, I KILL THEM. and just as sure as THE LORD has been with your servant shepherding his flock, delivering both a lion and a bear into my hands, THE LORD will render this philistine into your servants hands." 

And so it is for man, and so it is for your loss, your child, or your spuose, or your loved one, your shepherd, the shepherd, will not suffer but to bring them home. And death is not death to GOD, do you not know this. Death is death to all else, but GOD. it is his to use, or not use, to turn off or to turn on, it i s not a thing that hinders GOD but at thing at GOD's COMMAND. See you Egypt's first born, see you precise sniper precision amongst the masses of men. Not one misfire, not one round off target, not one at all. But precisely only that he commanded, so to is it when he brings from death, "Lazerus arise, and come forth." 

"do you know why he called forth Lazerus by name? Because if he had ARISE AND COME FORTH, everything that ever was dead, would rise and come forth." Billy Graham

He is right, Mr. Graham. That is what it is for GOD. Not for us, it is a wall a no more past this, as like the waters are to the beach, all that water, all that force, all that sweel that over takes all that it encounters, and what stops it, GOD. HE said to the waters, (know why he said "waters") "waters you shall go no more." and they stopped. they ceised in taking, over swelling, and they did it at pebbles. Over takes entire worlds, and GOD proves HIS dominance with an adament, by stopping the waters at pebbles of sand. These represent his sants, his men, Abraham's seed. Each unique, each one cut out, with much attention. 

Notice you the hoar frost, the snow, each unique, but not as cut out, like the pebble of sand, like to the stars in the sky, each one unique, as though something or someone had so much time, so much attention, that NO NOT ONE IS THE LIKE, you can not find two pebbles of sand, that are the same, like snow flakes, but with waters, water is wisdom, you see, in the cold it is bitter, it is coldly organized, no life breath or sign of, but every flake, unique, still, but it's uniformity makes it not so attentive in it's making. But a pebble, it comes from the waters, and their doings, their over swellings, their power, and the sand is that which comes out of it, thus like a son does a mother. One foot on the sea one on the beach. The reborn man. 

But this rebirthing, comes with a heart breaking, and the heartbreaking is the point of rebirthing, so many are lost and taken there. And do you know why? 

Because THE FATHER in HIS PITIFUL LOVE, will NOT, i repeat will NOT allow them suffer under the evil invention of evil and wicked things. HE IS A JEALOUS GOD. very jealous for them of the heart, for them of the sorrow. as Jesus Christ said to his disciples when they slept, whiel he drank the cup, that cup is the same cup as David drinks in Psalms 23 in the valley of the shadow of death. Thus it is the sin of the world, the cruelty, the mocking, the scourging, the betrayel of loved ones. the hurt, the care in your heart that makes this cup overflow, to break you, so does Jesus Christ say, "you can not stay awake for one our." this is the truth, a true interpretation of your life, of their life. 

When you are in the shit, the divorce, the prisons, the fight, the heat, you are there alone, for the rest are but asleep, they will not maintain with you, it is your cup, your table, your duty. Want a friend that is fatihful, then be you the faithful friend. You want to drink wine when it is old, when it is best, then do you not wish to drink your wife, your friends, your family, as such. Then in it's processes, as GOD see fit, it will be bitter first, or sweet at first, so you get the want, the urge, the curiosity, so you taste of what THE LORD GOD is making, and then it will get bitter, and why? To see if you loved it for it, and not for anything else. Now with wine, you may spit out, but shall you spit out your wife, in her bitter stages? GOD forbid, and he did forbid. Shall you throw down that which GOD put in your hand? shall you call that defiled or profaine or no good, that whcih GOD calls good, and clean? GOD forbid. And GOD did forbid. 

You may think different than all of man, but not GOD. And it is right and fitting that you should not disgree with GOD, HE is your maker, HE is your provider, HE is the greater and the wiser. Think you to find anyting without him? do you think to think of anyting without him? this is foolish, you are man, and GOD has answered, to such heavy matters as suicide, and death, and murders, and raping mass genecides, THE DAY and THE HOUR ARE THE FATHER'S ALONE TO KNOW. None can prevent this, you are just ignorant, or if you once though you knew, brothers, sisters, hear me, you are not alone, your brothers and your sisters, like you are suffering all over the world, they love as you, they love deeply, they loose deeply, and GOD HE knows all of this. 

But man must be checked somewhere, and for man to suffer such lossess and this be all of man, whether killer, or saint, serial killers love their mothers, why they almost always do not kill their moms. But no matter how much man looses, he only rises again to justify in taking. Often no matter the pains that come, he will not look up, he will not rises above, not in thoughts, not in understanding. GOD doesn't do idols, he doesn't anoint a wooden house, he doesn't anoint a car, he doesn't give a shit about your idols, all that he is doing is done with or without the idols, they do not hinder him, so much so, he will not recognize them. Adam hides under the fig leaf, and THE LORD GOD SAID, "adam where ar you." he did not ask adam, HE SAID,  HE SAID to ADAM, "where are you." meaning GOD knows, like a kid playing peak aboo, is man with his excuse, to GOD. "where are you little buddy." you can not add a ? there, not if you are speaking true, and GOD is and Moses that wrote it is. GOD knows you. GOD sees you. And all the bullshit all the world can muster, will not stop this truth from being, it is. and it will always be. GOD doesn't decrease in his sovereignty ever. He is omni, that is what omni means, inescapable, you can not escape. It is, and it will always be. He is GOD, and most important and hear me, set these things to your heart, because HE IS YOUR GOD. That is the changing factor, and this must be factored when you are forced into the reckoning, that is death. It will get you all, and it will not miss. 

Who says upon encountering death, "you are running late, and should have been here long ago?"  Who says to death, "about time, i was just hoping you would kill my son, my daugther, my wife, my mom, me, my dad?" who says such things? Yet reckon this, cause it is wrecking everything you know and love all the time, it is like night upon day on earth, it is creeping your way, it's time is set, it shadow is appointed the exact moment it comes upon you and it will over whelm you, as a wave does a person when it is a tsunami and the person, no matter what idols, is but just the person. Naked. No matter what covering, teh pressure alone seaas to his eminate ordained by GOD fate. nothing will prevent. And why is this, cause he is your GOD and he wants you all to know this. Had you not a rebellious spirit, maybe GOD not allow death to come in, this i can not know, i only know the world GOD has made for man, and i am a man, and GOD has told me the world i am in as a man, and like a program of a video game, GOD authors the world, setting bounds and all the like, and we know this cause he tells us, heaven's he has given book, that is amazing, that too is a reckoning, it is the reckoning, for the reckoning, or you will loose, and it's you that you loose. Your child is taken are so hurt from such grief of love. Then by your grief, what is love, where does it come from, what a gift. Then why would it come, where does it come from? Ants do not lament, not as man, one fall they march on, you say, you love so much you do not march on, you say, I AM TOO HURT, to much, you know not this love, and you can not know for you loved not as i loved them. but you are wrong, love is of GOD, it is a gift, given, and like all gifts GOD gives, he takes, but he takes nothing back. Do you understand? you are not making you. You are taught to love, to care, and then it is taken. is your flower plucked, it just bloomed. WHO DOES THAT? GOD, fool, you just cant' see for the grief of love. But where there is love, there is GOD, and where there is GOD, there is always multiplication, always increase, GOD does not decrease, he is fruitfull and he multiplies. Do you not know, have you not preached, have you given courage, you must have, did you not love them. Then did you not lovef them as such. Then eat of the food you fed them, eat and drink that food in rememberance of them, for that is what you fed them, that is what they would have become, GOD willing that is what they did become. So be with them. And know that where there is fruit, where there is growth, he will plcuck and prune, and clip, not so you loose, but only so you increase.